Why adoption?
First of all, I want to start by saying I (Whitney) am not a writer. If you're looking for a beautifully written, well thought out, and perfectly punctuated blog then you have come to the wrong spot. Writing is not a strength and truthfully it's not something I enjoy. This blog is purely to share our story of what the Lord is doing in our lives as we pursue adoption. This is a place where we can keep everyone updated as we experience the many ups and downs of this journey. Ultimately, sharing this story overcomes any personal fears or feelings of inadequacy. This isn't about us. This is about what the Lord is doing through our family. Thanks for following along...
So why adoption you ask? Well, adoption has been on my heart for as long as I can remember. I've always had the desire to love a child that has felt abandoned or unloved. I actually felt that way as a child as my mom and I always had a strained relationship. Thankfully, Joey has also felt the call to adopt too. We knew we wanted to have biological children as well as adopted. We somewhat started pursuing adoption after Emerson was born. After a difficult pregnancy, delivery and postpartum I wasn't sure if I ever planned to be pregnant again or at least not for a looooong time. Truthfully, once we started looking into adopting and meeting with others, the fear sank in. I didn't think I could do it. It was going to be too hard, too messy, how could I love a child I hadn't given birth to. You name it, I thought it. So we put it on the back burner not really sure if we would revisit that again. We had our second born, Eden, and let me tell you that the desire has not gone away. If anything it has been so strong that it's all I can think about and has consumed my thoughts. The Lord has really been stirring my heart for the last 6-8 months. Truthfully, I prayed he would take the desire away. I told him I was too scared, I wasn't equipped, we aren't good enough, I couldn't handle it etc. I've learned those thoughts are from the enemy. Scripture says "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but one of power, love, and sound judgment." That fear isn't from our Lord, its from the enemy himself and he'd love nothing more than for us to say no to what the Lord has put on our hearts. We want to be obedient in what we are feeling called to do. I am having to completely place my trust in the Lord. It has been the strangest pull of being completely terrified to say yes but also being completely terrified to say no because we believe we have a child oceans away that belongs in our family.
I have a different outlook now. Of course, there are a range of emotions and I know there will be many ups and downs but, we are EXCITED!! We absolutely can not wait to bring our child home. We have a missing piece from our family and he or she just happens to be half way across the world but we are willing and ready to FIGHT for him/her. We are so excited to have you following our journey. Just taking the time to read our blog, praying, sending words of encouragement, financially giving or however else you may show support means so very much to us.
With love,
Whitney
So why adoption you ask? Well, adoption has been on my heart for as long as I can remember. I've always had the desire to love a child that has felt abandoned or unloved. I actually felt that way as a child as my mom and I always had a strained relationship. Thankfully, Joey has also felt the call to adopt too. We knew we wanted to have biological children as well as adopted. We somewhat started pursuing adoption after Emerson was born. After a difficult pregnancy, delivery and postpartum I wasn't sure if I ever planned to be pregnant again or at least not for a looooong time. Truthfully, once we started looking into adopting and meeting with others, the fear sank in. I didn't think I could do it. It was going to be too hard, too messy, how could I love a child I hadn't given birth to. You name it, I thought it. So we put it on the back burner not really sure if we would revisit that again. We had our second born, Eden, and let me tell you that the desire has not gone away. If anything it has been so strong that it's all I can think about and has consumed my thoughts. The Lord has really been stirring my heart for the last 6-8 months. Truthfully, I prayed he would take the desire away. I told him I was too scared, I wasn't equipped, we aren't good enough, I couldn't handle it etc. I've learned those thoughts are from the enemy. Scripture says "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but one of power, love, and sound judgment." That fear isn't from our Lord, its from the enemy himself and he'd love nothing more than for us to say no to what the Lord has put on our hearts. We want to be obedient in what we are feeling called to do. I am having to completely place my trust in the Lord. It has been the strangest pull of being completely terrified to say yes but also being completely terrified to say no because we believe we have a child oceans away that belongs in our family.
I have a different outlook now. Of course, there are a range of emotions and I know there will be many ups and downs but, we are EXCITED!! We absolutely can not wait to bring our child home. We have a missing piece from our family and he or she just happens to be half way across the world but we are willing and ready to FIGHT for him/her. We are so excited to have you following our journey. Just taking the time to read our blog, praying, sending words of encouragement, financially giving or however else you may show support means so very much to us.
With love,
Whitney
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