A Daughter of the King!
On October 13th I was sitting on the side of my bed staring at my phone anxiously awaiting a friend to send a video announcing the gender of their baby. That's when the number of our agency came across my phone. Immediately my heart skipped because I assumed the only reason they would be calling was if they had a match for us. And that's what the call was about! Brooke from our agency called to let me know that they had a match for us. The way it works is they give you the childs name, age, gender, and whatever basic information they have on the child. You can then choose to look at the childs file and begin the 30 days of the file being held for you or you can choose to not look at the file. I of course said we wanted to see her file so she emailed everything to us including a picture. Joey and I both agreed to wait to open the email together once he was home from work and the kids were in bed. It was so hard seeing that unopened email and the curiosity was killing me. We sat down together that evening and began to review her file. We then got to see one little picture of her. We knew there was an immediate spark. We knew we "felt" something. We didn't know what that meant but we knew there was something. This was our second file to review. The first file we knew in our hearts almost immediately that that child was not ours. The story was different for her. We knew we felt something tug our heart for her. We even took a picture right after reviewing her file and seeing her face for the first time. We said "did we just see a picture of our daughter for the first time?" We took a picture together just to document the moment.
I wished I could tell you it was an easy yes. I wished I could tell you I wasn't afraid. I wished I could tell you my faith didn't waver. I was suddenly overwhelmed by this decision. This decision was made by spending intimate moments with the Lord. This decision was made by educating ourselves as much as possible. This decision was made by looking back at all of the physical reminders of God's faithfulness throughout this entire process. This decision was made by realizing the fear of not having her in our family was greater than any fears of the unknowns. I wanted clarity immediately. The Lord wanted me to lean into Him more. It was a season of wrestling with the Lord. We had been waiting for some final updates and videos. When I received that email that said "we have received updated videos and information from the SAA" I just cried out to God begging Him for clarity. Begging Him to give me peace. As I watched those precious new videos and pictures I felt as if a huge boulder was being lifted off of my shoulders. All I could say was YES! YES! She's ours. There was no hesitation. There was no doubt. Joey was at work so he was reading the email at the same time that I was. He said "this has sealed the deal, I'm all in". So on November the 6th 2020 we officially said yes to our daughter.Her name will be Eva J. Hollenbeck. We legally aren't allowed to share her middle name yet because that is her given name. We love her given name so much that we considered keeping it as her first name. But, our girls both have E names so we wanted all of our girls to have E names. We chose Eva because it is actually an Indian name. In Hindi it means "to live, to breath". It looks like we may even be calling her by both her first and middle name. A double name, I thought I'd never do that.
If you are looking for the easiest way to support us then you can purchase a puzzle piece. This puzzle will hang in Eva's room in a frame to see the front and back of the puzzle. This way she can see all of the names of the people that supported us financially to bring her home. These pieces without a line through them are still available. You can Venmo me at Whitney-Hollenbeck to purchase a puzzle piece or you can donate through our Lifesong for Orphans page. This is a safe way to make a tax-deductible donation. We receive 100% of the donation!
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